Yes, I'm vengeful and spiteful and everything no one really knows I am...Listening To: "That's What You Get" by ParamoreOh yes, that's what you get when you let your heart win...
Just as the song suggests...When you let your emotions take over your sense of rationality...The things you say or do don't really make much sense...Both to you or others...I don't expect others to understand or accept this dark side of me...Cos even I don't really like it...But it's just that...When I'm in it...It's like drug abuse...Once you're hooked...You're never letting it go...It just feels so good to be able to let the anger out somewhere...Quoted from my friendster profile..."I don't hate you, I just don't really like you"...It's a very true fact that I hold on till today...I've never really hated anyone...I just feel that perhaps for some strange and profound reason...I just can't seem to bring myself to get along with some people...It may work against me most of the time...But I've found this to be some form of self protection...Whether my friends are true or not...Will show their true colours eventually...And it's only through the way I react to certain situations that I find such things out...Call me naive, anti-social or just downright incalcitrant...I have no tolerance for people who are fake...I just feel like going to somewhere quiet and just meditate whenever I think of such things...Cos I feel that my emotional stress quota is better spent on more meaningful things...Life's too short, too fragile, too highly-strung to waste all of one's energy on unproductive thoughts...Sometimes you think you're at the limit of what your mental abilities can take...But somehow...If you think about it...Why bother inching towards it?
